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wrote on 3 March 2015
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Hi, I'm Ingeborg, 50 years old and pretty much in a knot. Have been working over 60 hours a week for almost 7 years (job and own business) and could have kept that up for years if there wasn't so much stress in recent years. Started another job (within the same company) 2 years ago and turns out to be nothing for me, making me feel like a failure. Decided with my manager to look out for another position. I have to do so much to keep everything in order, but can hardly bring myself to do anything. Meanwhile, I am seeing the mental health service and it was suggested that I might have ADHD. As a test, I took 10 mg of methylphenidate 5 nights. I did not consciously notice anything. Meanwhile, I have called in sick at work, I am exhausted and apart from the fact that hardly anything comes out of my hands, I am afraid I will make stupid decisions out of impulsiveness. Meanwhile, I started looking up all kinds of things on the internet about ADHD and I see many things that apply. What I have mainly been struggling with for years is that other people see me very differently than I see myself. If another person says what's on his mind he is assertive, I am unreasonable (I am told). I am difficult and dominant. But in my right mind you can have fun with me, despite my age nothing is crazy enough for me. Primary school I finished top of the class in the Cito test. Due to my lack of interest, dislike of homework and problems with teachers (authority) I messed up secondary school. (In 3 VWO, I had too few grades at the end of the school year that... Read more
Hi,
I am Ingeborg, 50 years old and pretty much in a knot. Been working over 60 hours a week for almost 7 years (job and own business) and could have kept that up for years if not for so much stress in recent years. Started another job (within the same company) 2 years ago and turns out to be nothing for me, making me feel like a failure. Decided with my manager to look out for another position. I have to do so much to keep everything in order, but can hardly bring myself to do anything. Meanwhile, I am seeing the mental health service and it was suggested that I might have ADHD. As a test, I took 10 mg of methylphenidate five nights. I did not consciously notice anything. Meanwhile, I have called in sick at work, I am exhausted and apart from the fact that hardly anything comes out of my hands, I am afraid I will make stupid decisions out of impulsiveness.
Meanwhile, I started looking up all kinds of things on the internet about ADHD and I see many things that apply. What I have mainly been struggling with for years is that other people see me very differently than I see myself. If another person says what's on his mind he is assertive, I am unreasonable (I am told). I am difficult and dominant. But in my right mind you can have fun with me, despite my age nothing is crazy enough for me.
Primary school I finished top of the class on the Cito test. Due to my lack of interest, dislike of homework and problems with teachers (authority), I messed up secondary school. (In 3 VWO, I had too few grades at the end of the school year that I didn't even have a report card). But can get any degree (as long as the education doesn't take too long) if I want, with little effort and high grades.
My head is often chaos, thinking about anything and everything, goes on and on and on. Even in my sleep, because I dream a lot and often wake up tired. When I want to tidy something up, first create a mega mess (because I do all sorts of things at once and encounter all sorts of things along the way that I also start) and can't stop until it's finished, often to my husband's annoyance. But I can't see into someone else's head, so don't know if my head does things differently from someone else's. So I am happy to leave it to someone else to judge that.
I could still write a lot, but I'll never get what's in my head on paper anyway, so stop now.
I'm glad I found this page and can read experience stories and other info. And now just 'patiently' waiting, what awaits me further down the line and what the diagnosis is.... Collapse
I am Ingeborg, 50 years old and pretty much in a knot. Been working over 60 hours a week for almost 7 years (job and own business) and could have kept that up for years if not for so much stress in recent years. Started another job (within the same company) 2 years ago and turns out to be nothing for me, making me feel like a failure. Decided with my manager to look out for another position. I have to do so much to keep everything in order, but can hardly bring myself to do anything. Meanwhile, I am seeing the mental health service and it was suggested that I might have ADHD. As a test, I took 10 mg of methylphenidate five nights. I did not consciously notice anything. Meanwhile, I have called in sick at work, I am exhausted and apart from the fact that hardly anything comes out of my hands, I am afraid I will make stupid decisions out of impulsiveness.
Meanwhile, I started looking up all kinds of things on the internet about ADHD and I see many things that apply. What I have mainly been struggling with for years is that other people see me very differently than I see myself. If another person says what's on his mind he is assertive, I am unreasonable (I am told). I am difficult and dominant. But in my right mind you can have fun with me, despite my age nothing is crazy enough for me.
Primary school I finished top of the class on the Cito test. Due to my lack of interest, dislike of homework and problems with teachers (authority), I messed up secondary school. (In 3 VWO, I had too few grades at the end of the school year that I didn't even have a report card). But can get any degree (as long as the education doesn't take too long) if I want, with little effort and high grades.
My head is often chaos, thinking about anything and everything, goes on and on and on. Even in my sleep, because I dream a lot and often wake up tired. When I want to tidy something up, first create a mega mess (because I do all sorts of things at once and encounter all sorts of things along the way that I also start) and can't stop until it's finished, often to my husband's annoyance. But I can't see into someone else's head, so don't know if my head does things differently from someone else's. So I am happy to leave it to someone else to judge that.
I could still write a lot, but I'll never get what's in my head on paper anyway, so stop now.
I'm glad I found this page and can read experience stories and other info. And now just 'patiently' waiting, what awaits me further down the line and what the diagnosis is.... Collapse