ADHD? For some, I'm just lazy
Started on ADHD medication
I take stock of another enervating week. Since my ADHD medication things are really improving but my memory is still not as it should be. I also think that my memory will never be as it should be, which might be a good thing, because then people around me might think I woke up from a very long and lazy period. After all, for some people I'm just lazy: 'that's just meeting up' and yes you can bet your ass she won't show up again or in the most positive case she'll just call off again.
Well that's me, Petra 35 years old, and an eternal sloth, at least sloth that's how most people see it. I see it differently. You see, I am always very busy in my head. But imagine if that suddenly changed. People wouldn't get well, they would have to get to know me all over again. I have already changed so much since the first pill I added into my life and then suddenly she is going to keep all these appointments too. It shouldn't get any crazier!
I can imagine myself suddenly standing at my mother's doorstep to fulfil our jointly made appointment to go to town. But the poor woman is already sitting in front of the television with pyjamas on and her feet relaxing in a warm bath. Does she have to get all dressed up again, turn off the TV and dry her feet, not necessarily in that order but it's the idea.
No that won't work, not in the first place because I loathe shopping, all those people in a clump who want to be the first at the checkout at any cost, no bah not me, no not just because of that but more for the fact that I would only confuse other people. Suddenly they have to upgrade my stamp sloth to a completely different word and they would never know what to say to me, "Have you forgotten me again?", "slacker", "airhead", and "hello are you coming?". Those would then just suddenly be empty words, no let's just keep that bit at the old level.
People have to get used to enough of everything that has suddenly changed about me, which is quite a lot.