My life with ADD... From disorder to strength
Me and my ADD label
In 2011, a new phase in my life began. I was in my graduation year at (fashion) art school and was diagnosed with ADD. The ADD label helped and explained a lot but I also let it make me feel extra insecure. I anticipated a range of setbacks because what I had always found troublesome about myself would apparently never go away.
After graduating, of course, 'real' life would have to start. I kept tough but I had no idea what I wanted, didn't dare apply anywhere for fear of 'falling through the cracks'. I was not specialised enough (I thought) and I was afraid that, once hired somewhere, I would be too quickly demotivated or make mistakes (fear of rejection all around). So I kept working in the pub as a base, and thinking that this way I could avoid rejection, I signed up as a self-employed person. Pretty logical step if you don't know what you want, right?
Work and travel
Luckily, by the time I realised I couldn't get assignments this way, modelling came my way. I travelled to major European cities to work. Definitely not a fat pot and sometimes quite stressful but I had accommodation, food to eat, friends, I could go out in clubs without spending money and I loved walking around those cities alone, visiting museums and drawing and people-watching on park benches. Plus, that connection with the fashion world remained (networking!) and it looked to people back home like I was doing fat. Travelling model, cool right? ;)
Meanwhile, it still gnawed at me that I had to do something with that study, I was still telling people that I would one day be a real fashion designer. While I knew I didn't actually desire that.
Following my heart
In 2013, my father proved terminally ill, which made me decide to stop travelling for work. I went back to work in the Netherlands. As a waitress, barmaid, giving sewing lessons, and the occasional modelling job. There was a time when I struggled to make ends meet, could no longer pay the rent and went to live with my mum. Pretty galling but it did give me space to think about how to move forward. I have never really been one for planning and I knew that 'following my heart' was the way to go, but it dawned on me that I had not followed that heart much in recent years and had mostly listened to others.
Suddenly, something started rolling. Through a friend, I got housing again in a big city. His employer moved into an anti-squatting commercial building and I was able to move in. It cost me almost nothing, had plenty of private space and I was so much more conveniently located for the work I had from time to time. Then, believe it or not, I fell in love with my flatmate. We got into a relationship, I got a nice job at a clothing shop and we bought a cat. Yes, bam, stability!
That from that first session my life changed completely I would not claim. But when I walked away from her, the realisation that prevailed was: 'Everything is O.K.! How come I never saw before how OK everything is!'
The turnaround in my life through Access Bars
This was also when I underwent my first Access Bars session. A treatment developed by Gary Douglas of Access Consciousness? A good friend of mine had just started this and after her stories about all the possible effects it can have on a person, I had become curious.
It involved me just lying down and she would gently touch my head with her fingertips. For ninety minutes. That touch would allow me to release the limiting patterns in myself. Not all at once, but each session I would be 'lighter'. I had quite a big backpack that needed to be lighter, a brain that was working overtime and my first session with her was free, so the choice was quickly made.
Everything is OK
That from that first session my life changed completely I would not claim. But when I walked away from her after the Bars session, the prevailing feeling was: 'Everything is OK! How come I never saw before how OK everything is!' I experienced so much peace and space in my mind, there was nothing negativity that had a grip on me. That night I slept deeply and long and woke up smiling. How long that feeling lasted that week I don't remember. But now, countless sessions on, I can say that that feeling is a choice. It was always a choice, but before, I just wasn't aware of it. That's what the Bars and the tools of Access? help me with; making me more aware. More aware of who I am and can be, of what I really desire and of the choices available to create that.
The idea that I first had to be or have something to deserve something, that is simply not my reality anymore. I am less and less concerned with who I should be according to other people's realities. I can do anything as long as I rest in the knowledge that there is always choice. That every choice creates and that I am not in control of events, but I am in control of what I choose. My thoughts, my actions, my reactions, in every area; choice. For me, that knowledge encompasses the true meaning of Wealth.
That most do not yet understand how to interact with 'us' so that everything becomes easier and toffer, is only a matter of time.
The potency of my ADD brain
These days, I rarely tell people that I am ADD have. It's not so relevant anymore. Well, don't get me wrong, I personally love it because I have seen what I am capable of partly because of that ADD brain. ADD, ADHD, HSP and everything on the Autistic spectrum I see as superpowers. And there are more and more of us! The fact that most don't yet understand how to interact with 'us' so that everything becomes easier and tougher is just a matter of time. The thing is, I used to use the term to explain why I didn't get something right or had a stitch up. I used to hide behind the ADD which made me focus way too much on what wasn't succeeding and thus trapped myself. It no longer hinders me and is therefore no longer relevant to me. There is now room for my potential and I am more and more willing to make/confess mistakes, be wrong and acknowledge that something is not working. Hello infinite possibilities!
Access Bars practitioner
I have now been an Access Bars practitioner myself for 5 years and also give all kinds of other Access Consciousness energetic body treatments and tools? It's the last thing I could have imagined as something I was going to make a living from when I graduated in 2011. But, it is the greatest gift I have ever given myself. I no longer have any fears about what the future holds. Only curiosity and excitement, like right before that new rollercoaster you're on goes off the brakes. Woohoo! What else is possible?
Well, Access Bars?... A little more explanation perhaps?
Perhaps I should start by explaining what we mean by the concept of energy, since that is the essential aspect of the treatment. Science tells us that everything is energy. That which is alive but also that which does not seem to be alive and the empty space in between (which is therefore not really empty). Everything is made up of molecules, which in turn consist of atoms > electrons > neutrons > protons. We can perceive those molecules as vibrations. Energy is basically everything that has a vibration/frequency. And so that is well eh, EVERYTHING.
We continuously influence that energy with what we eat, breathe, touch, hear and see but also with what we think and feel and what meaning we give to certain things. By now, several studies and researches have revealed this. We are beginning to understand it, scientifically speaking. Ever heard of the 'Bully a Plant' project? This demonstrated the effect of bullying. Two same plants, same amount of water and sun and same atmosphere. Plant A is told loving words for 30 days, plant B is told nasty, hurtful words for these 30 days. Plant A blooms profusely, plant B languishes and shows decay. The energy of the words affected the plant's cells and molecules.
Create your own reality
Placebo action is a similar story. As long as the belief is strong enough or repeated regularly, the cells and molecules respond to what the brain/body emits and trigger something that will confirm that belief. What goes around comes around, but without the judgmental element. No right or wrong. It's basically; what bean emits is what bean attracts. We can argue that our views and thoughts create our reality and so we can simply make different choices to create a more desirable reality. True. However, sometimes we get ourselves so stuck that we don't notice the choices or are afraid to make them. Now that's where the Bars? come in around the corner :).
The Access Bars, developed by Gary Douglas, are 32 points on the head in which all the polar electrical charge of all attitudes, thoughts and emotions on all kinds of aspects and topics of a human life are stored. By touching those points with the fingertips (by the practitioner), a flow of energy takes place. You can compare this to touching the poles of a battery. The charge of all the thoughts, attitudes and emotions that limit you can then begin to release.
Changing or releasing that charge is an essential part of healing because you can literally think yourself sick , depressed and anxious. Once we learn and are empowered to see and choose other possibilities, the healing/healing or finer life, if you will, can begin. A life where the word 'normal' has no meaning, you move beyond labels and you live only in infinite possibilities.
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Just a wake-up call...you don't have to get rid of your adhd...you are a human from a "new" earth, it's actually all very simple...you are right, everything is energy and frequency...say vibration.
The "old" human functions at a frequency of 7.83 Hertz... this is the alpha state,the adhd-er has a much higher frequency, that's all.
Earth has always had this frequency, but since 2014 it has suddenly doubled, fluctuating so much between 15 and 25 Hertz.
Last week, we even had a peak of 69 Hertz!
Science can't explain why the earth's frequency is suddenly rising...7.83 Hertz is the vibration of the sleepers, the slaves so to speak...they go obediently to work every day, pay themselves squat in taxes, and live life according to the principle of house and home...they are basically the walking dead, you see.
Because the earth's vibration is rising, mother earth is also stirring, hence the extreme weather, volcanic eruptions and earthquakes that are much worse now than before. So everything has to do with the frequency increases that are taking place now...we are busy and chaotic because our high vibration did not resonate with the earth so...but now that the earth is rising further and further in vibration, we are getting closer and closer to the point, that we are actually functioning better...this frequency is also called the shumann resonance, google it.
You are what the spiritualists call a new age child, only they believe in angels and such...haha, also a way of making sense of it.
Haven't you noticed that in the past week you were often exhausted, slept badly and had all kinds of complaints in your body, muscle aches, flu-like symptoms and so on...that was because the earth's magnetic field is now weakened, and very strong energies can penetrate the earth, this is a normal cycle called solar minimum, it takes place every 11 years or so, all scientifically substantiated and proven.
There are people on earth who know this, supposedly our leaders, who you really don't see on the news, and they absolutely do not want this to become common knowledge, because then this crazy society will collapse.
They do everything they can to keep humans in a low vibration, by creating fear...wars, poverty, and sending terrible diseases into the world, because then people stay on the frequency of 7.83, and are easy to manipulate.
Why do you think we are always called difficult and obstructionists...because we think for ourselves...and people don't want that.
Stop all the pills and crap, and just turn inward and ask yourself at everything you see and hear...why?
Eventually the answers will come to you...observe...think without thoughts, and you will see what I am talking about.
I could write so much more, but then it becomes an unclear mess....
The key points are:
- the shumann resonance.
- the earth frequency which is still rising.
- Earth's magnetic field which is weakening.
- celestial bodies ( planets) that entered our solar system and caused all this.
You are not here on earth to be drugged so that you go to work obediently, possess yourself at the weekend, and later die from an illness in the nursing home....
You are a new kind of human, with a high frequency, who can participate in creating a different society, lived from compassion understanding and love...
To welcome the new, the old will have to disappear, which is why everything will eventually go to shit anyway, and you can see it for yourself...this society doesn't work...the rich get richer, and the poor get poorer and poorer, war,disease, poverty and misery, and it's getting worse and worse....
Dare to be yourself with your adhd, you will eventually be an example to others...the sleepers are not, they are lost, labelling us as deranged, and prefer to drug us.
Greetings adhd maarten.
Maarten ?? Thanks for your contribution! I suspect that if you delve into Access Consciousness you will find many tools that fit seamlessly with your knowledge. How does t get even better than this!
I understand, this " therapy" is idd a tool to come back to yourself so to speak.
I have read about it, and yes...I have actually done the same thing, but with and from within myself in a different way.
In my youth, none of this was available, and so I just figured it all out myself...consciously and subconsciously.
I also know that I am supposedly psychic, and this has helped me a lot in my life...I didn't use it to help others, but to help myself, you understand....
But for that, you have to be aware first...I'm not mad at the sleepers either, they can't do anything about it either, it's also a madhouse here, and people are so manipulated.
What helped me a lot to become enlightened was allowing emotions, I underwent my inner pain, music and dance also contributed a lot to this.
Especially the spiral dances of the old Sufis...these still help me now to drain quite a bit of energy from my body and mind, and in conjunction with releasing all the emotions...I can empty myself again so to speak, allowing me to better integrate the new energies into my body and mind....
When I recently became enlightened in 2010, I could also release a kind of vibration from my body whenever I wanted...I called it the love vibration at the time...I let my then 10-year-old daughter feel it once...I held my hands on her cheeks and said look....wow daddy she said...it's like billions of power surges she said...I said yes...it's love, and I could let it pass through my body whenever I wanted...unfortunately that state only lasted for three weeks, and then she was gone....
I can still feel her, but only when I'm in a very soft state so to speak....
Compassion especially makes her active...I once had it with a friend I had years ago...she had asthma, whip lash, and more complaints...I was massaging her back and shoulders, and I became very soft inside...the moment I thought, how much I love you girl, and I became compassionate with her, the vibration suddenly came through im my hands in her body...she jumped up from the sofa startled and said...what are you doing! I suddenly felt all stimuli coming from your hands and my breath stopped she cried...are you now curing my asthma she said in amazement....
I didn't know what was happening, of course, because it came spontaneously.
And now it still happens when I listen to music or watch a film that touches my heart, for example...she goes through my whole body...it's like a kind of goosebumps say, but 1000 times stronger, and it feels wonderful....
Unfortunately, the world around me is far too hard for me, which is why I prefer to be alone a lot, with myself.... feelings and gentleness is still seen as a weakness in this society, and yet it is the greatest strength in the uni/multiverse...Love....
Just wanted to say, I can't very well go along with the theory that there are certain leaders there to deliberately suppress us in this aspect. As long as we become more conscious, there is simply less and less room for things that don't work for us right? In the end, everyone wants ease and joy and abundance. The more awareness(higher frequency), the more we make choices that create more cool things not only for ourselves, but for the planet.
I understand your point of view...
I mean more that we live in a world of duality, there can be no good without bad...there is no beautiful without ugly, everything here has a counterpart....
I would not have adhd, if there were no people without adhd...I would just be Martin.
So there are no good leaders, without bad leaders...light versus dark.
Everyone experiences life and this society according to his/her insight, and consciousness level, I really don't have to be right, because how I see and experience things is my world, and how you experience and see it is your world... so basically we are both right, hahaha, have to laugh about it myself now, is another lesson for me, thanks.
Where can I do that treatment?
There are Access Practitioners and Facilitators all over the Netherlands. My practice is in Abcoude. If that's not really nearby I recommend you google Access Bars *residence*.
A very beautiful sincere sweet person and the access bars really help?
Dear Arjan thank you!